This is a long but sad poem

This is a long but sad poem

I am very proud of myself,
In every single way.
Now I tell you
What happened today.

Actually it happened a bit ago
And I just really have to tell you.
My mom told me I could go.
To a party.

I went to the party.
And people thought I bite.
It didnt really matter.
But I took a Sprite.

My friends told me loosen up.
And I just smiled.
Just then they handed me a cup.
I looked inside and it stunk, but it was mild.

I tasted a tiny bit.
And It tasted VERY bad.
And I just couldnt help to spit.
My friends were all very sad.

I asked them what it was.
And they said beer.
I looked at them very scared.
For I looked like a dying deer.

I looked at them, and ran away.
For I was very sad.
I disobeyed my mom that day.
I thought she would be mad.

My friends got in a car and drove away.
And a little later.
I followed them that day.
For they looked like falling asleep.

A little later I found myself on concrete.
I had blood on my face.
Everywhere around.
I felt very sleepy.

As if I was going to die.
I went to the emergency room.
For they said not to worry.
But then I heard a big loud sigh.

Then I listened in very closely.
Turns out I was dying.
???Oh mom!??? I whispered.
It was getting very hard to breathe.

For it was minutes before my death.
I looked at the ceiling blankly.
And took a deep breath.
???Oh mom! I wish you were here!??? I said.

And I was going to die.
Then the whole hospital heard me yell,
???I love you mom! And this is a goodbye!???
The doctor ran in worried.

And there he saw me breathe.
I looked at him and said
???I wish I was still here.???
And there he saw me breathe on last breath.

Before my very death.
Then I tried to hold on.
But it was too late.
I tried to breathe again.

But it was my fate.
To go to heaven and live there.
For once and all.
I couldnt breathe again.

And there my body lays.
And my spirit lays there.
Looking at it in all different ways.

???Goodbye.??? My spirit whisperes.
As she dissapears.
And I go away.
And never come back.
By: xxxlexx