If you like death , ill tell you all about it.....

1. how does it feel?

"It is as if one is going through a tunnel, it gets darker and darker, then in the distance there is a light and you go into it. It is hard to describe what it is like, it is like being in the middle of the sun - incredibly bright light, but it is not blinding. One is simply in it and it is as if you are one with this light. It is not only light, there is something more, this light knows you as you are. You feel accepted. What really made an impression on me is the prevalent feeling there of a sense of love and warmth which overshadowed everything else; it simply overwhelms you".

2.the fear of death.

Thousands, no, tens of thousands of people must have experienced something very similar. They kept silent about it for fear of being ridiculed by a materialistic society where fear of death is so dominant that to speak about it is almost taboo. This fear of death, according to the evidence given by 'eye witnesses' who have dared to speak out, is totally unnecessary. Many of those who have briefly passed the barrier between 'life and death' find it much more difficult to come back than to stay 'on the other side'. In the words of the same Dutch chemist: "At a certain point I knew that I had to choose: either to go on (for you know that beyond that light there is something more) or to go back. That is just about the hardest thing to do, because the feeling of so-called 'death' is so pleasant that it takes a great deal of will-power to go back. I made the decision, but I can very well imagine that there are people who find it so pleasant that they stay there and go on."

3.Is there a message behind your "death" dreams?


All dreams

mean two things wither that will come true or not.... sometimes people think about other people dying or the dead who they care about the most or don't. A dream is a dream because subconsciously we do want to see the other person in pain or happy. Even myself, i have had the dream of my best friend who had died while we were in school, i talked to him in my dreams but he did not recognise me but i did. Also i saw many bad things happening to my other friends in my dream like accidents etc but none came true and there were some good dreams ( some which did come true because only it was obvious ) so dont worry

4.You feel like you want to crawl into a hole and die...
I feel your pain, you are in a VERY sad situation.
Don't think about killing yourself, life is going to get better, beleive me!
Stay on your meds okay? If you want to get better you need to take them, that's what they're ment for. They aren't going to take over your life and if you want to be happy without them then for now just take them to help you get out of this. Try to exercise more, it'll help you take your mind off things, then maybe try drawing, writing, learning an instrument, anything, a new hobby. Patience is key.